I’ve had this week off whilst I transition between companies (I finally got to use the phrase “I’m in between two jobs right now”) and in my state being relaxed/nervously excited for next week, I weirdly found myself measuring the amount of daylight we’re getting. I think this is finally the week where it’s still at least a little light outside after 5pm. Although it’s now colder than it’s been all winter, the running hasn’t stoppeld on my week off. Fully donned with beanie hat, gloves, and man tights I’ve been able to take advantage by running in actual daylight.
I’m slowly and painfully learning that running the marathon is as much mental as it is physical – if not more. Balancing three runs, one gym session, one yoga session, stretching every day, on top of everything else, is something I’m finding a little tricky. I’ve always been very active but this time it’s much more difficult. It may be because of the weather (re cold and dark as balls note above), maybe because I’m training for an end goal, maybe because it’s all come at a time of personal change…whatever it is, this is turning out to be tougher than anything I’ve done before.
Recently I’ve had to revisit a few techniques I relied through my CBT period. I picked up the below through counselling, sharing ideas with other people, and the good ol’ fashioned Internet (health warning to be incredibly careful when relying on the internet; hypochondria works for mental health, too). This is simply stuff that has worked for me in the past, both in the short-term i.e. actual moments of anxiety, and longer-term techniques to help build resilience.
Hope it’s of at least some use to others out there too:
Short term:
- Breath. In situations of stress, taking deep breaths has a calming effect, helps lower your heart rate, and send oxygen to vital parts of the brain. Deep breaths through the nose and out the mouth can help bring a sense of calm and stop your mind running off on different tracks. Properly underrated but one of the simplest techniques for respite from anxiety.
- Grounding. Related to breathing, grounding is based on taking in elements from all your senses. What can you see, hear, touch, smell? This will help you snap back to the present and stop ruminating anxious thoughts.
- Detached Mindfulness. Something that really helped my OCD intrusive feeling is separating yourself from your own thoughts. Each time you are faced with an anxious or intrusive emotion, distance yourself from it in your mind. I do this by imagining I’m in a cinema and the thought is projected onto the screen. As I walk up the steps, I’m physically walking away from the screen/thought, before taking my seat to watch it go by with a handful of popcorn. It’s great for reminding you that you are not the sum total of your thoughts.
- Noting. It’s very easy to get caught up in the unease and suddenly finding yourself ruminating for hours. The simple act of noting the stress in your body/mind and letting it pass is a great technique of learning that anxiety is simply a feeling. Being ‘at peace with anxiety sounds and actually trying not to get rid of it sounds counter-intuitive but is an art which comes with practice. Anxiety is natural – you don’t have to be on guard for it and it’ll go as quickly as it’s come if you’re able to let it be.
- Externalise. Quite literally, write down all your stressful thoughts on a piece of paper. Getting out of your mind may help reduce your anxiety simply by externalising your thoughts, but also rationalising them with logic and helps you deal with them at a time you need to, rather than constantly have it on your mind.
Long-term:
- Meditation. I was a meditation nay-sayer a year ago, picturing cross-legged hippies chanting Kumbaya with daisies in their hair. But getting Headspace for just 10 minutes, 3 times a week is medically proven to help anxiety, stress, depression, and improve your overall well-being. This, for me, has been a game-changer.
- Exercise. This doesn’t have to be running, swimming, jogging, or anything strenuous. Getting your heart rate elevated for short periods of time can be enough to drive positive mental strength. Even 15-minute walks, yoga, Pilates, stretching, DIY, are all proven to help. Take the stairs or get off the bus a stop earlier is a simple kick-starter for exercise.
- Nutrition. Slightly tricky one as food is subjective to everyone, so I won’t say much about this. I try and follow the 80/20 rule – eat right 80% of the time, leaving 20% for your pleasures. Research is increasing finding that bacteria in your gut is intrinsically linked to your mental health, so making sure you’re putting the right fuel in you is only bound to help.
- Chill out. I mean, really chill the fuck out. I calculated since the beginning of January I’ve had four days where I’ve had nothing on (bar work) – 4 out of 31 days, or 13% of the month, I haven’t been physically and mentally relaxing. That may be alright for some people but it’s not enough for me; I simply haven’t been resting. Taking stock, slowing down, and doing whatever it is that is relaxing to you is invaluable (even if that’s playing Read Dead Redemption for six hours in your boxers…).
- Compassion. You have to cut yourself a break. We’re all unique, complex individuals with different needs to each other at different times in different scenarios. You don’t have to feel happy/positive/joyful all the time. It’s ok to say you’re not ok and you don’t have to put on a brave face. You can admit you’re human. Objectively this is probably hardest for us blokes, so ask yourself this – what would you say to your best mate going through what you are?
Bonus technique: seek help. Deserving of a line of its own. My absolute #1 regret is not having sought help sooner. It’s no exaggeration that my CBT saved my life; without it, I can’t be too sure where I’d be. Having completely lost four good years to OCD and anxiety, I wish I was more open and honest about my mental health earlier and got the help I needed sooner that I had. Getting help is extremely accessible as well. It doesn’t need to be face to face; it could be phone, Skype, remote CBT, online courses, even group therapy.
The adage remains – you’d go seek help for a broken leg, so why shouldn’t you for anxiety, stress, and unhelpful thoughts? Go speak to your GP if you feel like you need to as it could be the best thing you’ve ever done.
****
The last couple of months have been tough, and the next three are going to be pretty intense. Between now and the end of April, I’ll not only be changing jobs, but changing companies altogether (the first time I’ve ever done that), gearing up for a lot of travelling during said new job, planning my mate’s stag-do (Scott if you’re reading this, I’d prepare your liver now), planning my own wedding (to my wonderful, amazing fiancée Emily), and preparing for, raising money for, and running the London Marathon. Not doing things by halves…
Being honest I had written another blog which went into a ton of detail about my personal experience with obsessive thoughts and compulsions. But revisiting old wounds has led to a few set-back, so I decided not to share it. I want to look forward with positivity rather than backwards with a weird mix of nostalgia, grief, and fear. I hope some of the above tools help people more than my cathartic stories down memory lane.
All of those techniques are scientifically proven to help. They have been interrogated with research, patient pilots, studies, consultations to help people when they fall into ill mental health. Awareness is increasing, but without quality research, we can’t explore other avenues to understand mental health and the ways we can prevent what one in four of us fall into.
I’m running the London Marathon for MQ; please give generously to their amazing cause here.
I’ll buy you a beer when this is all over!